I had a great dinner last night. Chris brought me to Novena Square 2 to have dinner at my favorite restaurant called Seoul Yummy. And he ordered sooo much food. Oh man. I forgot how much I love Korean fare.

And he looks great. I thought it'd be uncomfortable meeting him but it wasn't that bad actually. He did change a lot. He looks younger now.

This afternoon, I went to JCU to hand in my application form for the bachelor that I wanna take. Lol it's still subject to approval. I thought I could already get in T.T but the staff said there shouldn't be any problem so there's a high chance I can start school in October.

After JCU I went to Taka with my mom to shop =p she bought clothes for me. Walk until my feet got blister thanks to my shoes.

I was watching the Haunting in Conneticut just now. GG.. Watching alone is 10x scarier than watching it with someone else. I watched the first part with Dave last week then it got rather boring. lol. Aiya the show is like.. 1.5 hrs, and the scary parts aren't really scary.

At the good part Xav called me. Rofl. Scared me out of my wits. I had dinner with him tonight and tomorrow night also I think.

We went to City Hall! My favorite place to go when I dunoe where to go xD We walk until Marina Square then had dinner at Kenny Rogers. Hoo boy, uber yummy. We had the 2 person combo, the ribs and chicken. Oh manz >< I forgot how much I love ribs.

We took a long, long walk after that. We walked from Marina Square till erm, Plaza Sing. He took bus home with me, then we went to Tiong to have dessert. Peanut tang yuan and chocolate ice shavings with nata de coco. Omgggggggg. I have been pigging out on food these few days ><

Well, meeting Sher tmr, then maybe Xav again in the evening. My turn to give him a dinner treat =)

I went to the Dead Sea Scrolls exhibition today. My mom is on the committee and there was free admission this morning.

It's really really amazing. The exhibits were 500~1000 years old. It's about the first translations of the Bible and they have the actual versions of the Greek, Latin Bibles that are about 500 years old. It's amazing how they could get all the scripts together in one place.

Do go if you're interested, the exhibition is only in Singapore for 3 weeks at the Arts Centre in City Hall. If you miss this exhibit then you will need to go to 9 different countries to see all I've seen in 1 hour.

Okay, so what's the count currently? Too many to keep track.

Many people have been coming to me to know the story of the breakup, and everytime I talk to them I feel so damn lousy about myself.

I met Jason for lunch this morning. He told me what's going on in office, and seems like our breakup is the current hot topic. People are speculating what's happened and I guess because of the damn facebook, almost everyone knows.

I was glad I could meet up with him though. I haven't seen him in a long long time. At least he listened and I felt comfortable talking to him.. Bryan called when I reached home, again to find out what happened.

But I really hope that since I'm single, the guys in my life won't be afraid to ask me out again.

I broke up with Chris this afternoon.

The hurt and the pain has set in a while ago. A tiny fraction of what he must be feeling.

I can't believe what an idiot I am. I never thought of his feelings and just did what I wanted to do. It wasn't until just now that sadness sank onto my chest and weighed me down. It was only then that I thought of how he must be feeling.

I feel so horrible. I saw how hurt he was but I still didn't do anything. He packed when I was out in town with Jon. Part of me is going crazy just by seeing his bags at the door. It's all I can do not to stop him and change my mind. It has been, after all, two and a half years of our lives.

I wish he would shout and hit me, instead of wishing me happiness. I can't imagine how much I've hurt him.

Hey..

I spent most of the day at Dave's place.. We were talking nonsense and doing our own thing. There was Silent Hill that night and I wanted to watch. Surprisingly I wasn't that scared after the show. I used to be really scared of this kinda shows so that restricted me on what movies I could watch.

I can't go get my results tomorrow as planned. The stupid school never reply my email.

I had the most terrible dream last night. I dreamt my dad passed away. It was so scary and frightening. I got to feel how it would be like if he really left. I woke up and I got scared. I almost called him to check but Chris told me he saw him in the morning while I was asleep.

I guess I haven't gotten over the death of a friend.

I had lunch with Dave at Lot 1 yesterday. We had mac again. He seems addicted to the seaweed fries ==

Today supposed to go foot massage then in the end I just went to his place to pick up his old keyboard. I prefer using desktop keyboard to the laptop one but my table is a tad too small. Lol.

Went to improve on my laptop area. I connected my old Harmon/Kardon speakers with soundsticks, change mouse, and use keyboard. Now when I use the com feel so good.

I should be taking up the saxophone. I already enquired about the course etc. It would be a good skill to learn. Plus I love its music.

Till next time.

I think my parents wanted to cheer me up after attending the wake. They brought me out to brunch at Sushi Tei. They knew the manager so we had a lot of special treatment. The food was superb.

My dad always make fun of my mom.

Dad : It's normal to eat a lot when you come here. But with your mom's case she always eats a lot.
Mum: ... That's because I don't want the food to go to waste.
Dad : That's why it ends up going to your waist. But I have no waist so it's okay.

Rofl. See the way he uses puns. Waste, waist.

He asked what I wanted to do for my 21st birthday. I told him I wanted to go to Korea. He said okay! He even asked if I wanted free and easy or follow a tour. I went to Korea before when I was really young, so I don't really remember anything about it. We had a tour then, and it was really boring because all you did was sit in the bus.

I'd rather go in the autumn. Oh man it's gonna be gorgeous there. But I don't know if he meant letting me go on my own. Besides, I also don't know who to ask. They all got their own commitments -.- and I mean boyfriends who probably won't allow them to go.


I've been checking out music schools. But I don't know what instrument to pick up. My mom seems bent on me learning the drums, but I wanna learn something more musical. I've always admired the music a sax produces, so I'm currently looking into that as well.


Going out to meet Dave for lunch soon... We were supposed to catch the 1230 show of Orphan but in the end he couldn't make it that early. A little relieved lol, because I know my mind will start to play tricks on me after watching it.

Ah. Screw msn. Although my connection's fine it just won't log on. Good thing I'm reformatting with the correct bit cd tomorrow.

There were many people at her wake. Ms Thio and Mdm Lim went too. I got to see them after 3 years. It was painful watching her sister and her parents.

Many ex-fairsians were there.

Dave called in the morning to ask me out for dinner, so after the wake I went to meet him at his studio. Then, he played something to cheer me up. We had a nice dinner at Raffles City. I feel more comfortable around him because it took my mind off the whole incident.

But when I was alone that fear and that sinking feeling hit me so hard. Seeing her body seems so surreal. I kept thinking it had to be a bad joke, that she would wake up and walk again.

A few weeks back, she had asked me for ndp tickets. I didn't help her to get. I keep thinking if I did, maybe she would have lived for a couple of days more and I got to at least see her again.

I wanted to blog about what I did yesterday and today. Then something just changed my life.

I received an sms from Aaron. He asked if I knew what happened to Clara. I said no, then he told me she passed away. At that time.. I was with Jonathan and his friends at Fish N Co having a birthday dinner. I thought he was joking. I mean, how can it be true, how can someone I know who is my age be dead?

I didn't believe him. It just had to be one lousy joke. Then I called my mom's place to ask if my sister knew about it. She had already told my mother. Then the truth set in. My emotions went crazy; I didn't know what to feel.

Tomorrow is the wake. I'll be going there with Aaron. I expect all her ex-classmates and teachers will be there.

And to think, I had wanted to ask her to do me a favor and before I could, she's gone.

I'm not close to her but my heart aches when I think about her. I can't comprehend the pain I will feel when someone closer to me passes away.

Ah.. Been busy lately so I didn't update.

Hmm. I met Dave at Lot 1 before he left for Vietnam. He wanted to check out the new extension. In the end we didn't. Not enough time before his tuition. So we just had lunch at Macdonald's. We had the new wasabi double filet o' fish. hehe not bad. When he left I went to the library to borrow a couple of books.

Yesterday night, my parents had a dinner party at their place. I think it was to welcome someone back from overseas. Wow the place was hopping. 25 guests in that small 4-room flat. I had fun though, meeting all my father's colleagues.

I also had my first taste of white wine! My father asked if I wanted to try and I said yes. It tastes like beer, actually, just a little stronger. Can't say I enjoyed it, but can't say I didn't either =p My mother was still keen on me taking up drum lessons. I like drums but it carries a very man flavor. I'm still thinking about it.

I'm meeting Sher for dinner later around town. I haven't met her in awhile thanks to her job. I want to go to KL sometime to shop. So many ppl are going overseas except me T.T And now thanks to my live-in boyfriend, my friends don't dare to ask if I wanted to go. Haiiii.

I do want to go ~ !!

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