There were many people at her wake. Ms Thio and Mdm Lim went too. I got to see them after 3 years. It was painful watching her sister and her parents.

Many ex-fairsians were there.

Dave called in the morning to ask me out for dinner, so after the wake I went to meet him at his studio. Then, he played something to cheer me up. We had a nice dinner at Raffles City. I feel more comfortable around him because it took my mind off the whole incident.

But when I was alone that fear and that sinking feeling hit me so hard. Seeing her body seems so surreal. I kept thinking it had to be a bad joke, that she would wake up and walk again.

A few weeks back, she had asked me for ndp tickets. I didn't help her to get. I keep thinking if I did, maybe she would have lived for a couple of days more and I got to at least see her again.

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