Getting frustrated with myself lately. I don't know why I get so easily used to the wrong things and I automatically expect it all the time. It's taking everything out of me to make sure this doesn't become a prototype of my past relationship.

And it isn't even about school stress. That will come in less than a month's time.

Feel so tired. In every aspect. I thought suppressing my feelings would make it easier for me (and others) to deal with similar situations because I'm already used to it. But doing that just makes me feel worse and external factors outside just pile up on it. Plus, I don't even want to get used to it, although I know I probably have no choice.

Maybe I'm just not ready for this kind of thing.

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